BajaGirl

Monday, October 09, 2006

Feelings 2

A while ago I wrote a blog called “Feelings”. I wrote this blog because there was some things going on with my dad and I thought it would help. It ended up being a big old mess because it was taken too personally by some of my family. I’m about to write another one, and for those people who take it too personally again, well, I’m sorry that might happen. That’s your feelings I guess. It’s not that I don’t care about your feelings, it’s just that this blog isn’t meant to blame anybody or hurt any feelings what so ever. If it does, then I’m sorry.

Lately my dad has been a little rude to me in promising that he would call me once a week and visit me once a month. In the beginning of the summer we saw a movie together and spent some of the day. He apologized saying that he’s been really busy and that he would like to try to see me more often. I said it would be ok, don’t worry about it, but I look forward to talking to him and seeing him. I was really excited that I would get to see him more often.

He called me once the whole summer. He also gave me one email while I was visiting with my grandma in Texas, but it was very short. At the end of the summer when I was coming back home from Texas and passing by where he lives I called him to see if we can get together. I understand that we couldn’t because he said he had a very bad virus. He’d been traveling a lot.

Since school’s started he’s sent me one email and that’s it that's cause I sent him one first. Either something is seriously wrong with his computer and he can’t get on, or he’s just not trying. If the case is that his computer is broken I understand, but it’s kind of unusual for his computer, home phone, cell phone and his work phone to be broken all at one time. If it’s just that he’s not trying well then that really makes me mad. It feels like he’s not putting in an effort.

I would really appreciate it if he’d put a little bit more effort into me then he does his other family. Other family meaning not mine, but his other family in his life now.

There’s a lot going on in my life that I want to tell him about. For instance I’m starting new programs for 4-H and my new friends at school. I guess he’s got other more important stuff to do.

These are my words, not my mom’s or anybody else’s. The only thing that they help me with is spelling, punctuation and etc. That’s the only thing they do. My mom types it because it would take me a very long time to type all these blogs since I’m just learning how to type on a computer. That is another subject I’d like to share with my dad.

I feel better now that I made this blog. I would appreciate it if I got some comments about it, but if you don't want to then that's your opinion.